Thoughts
19/04/2010 07:07
on checking email this AM, Holy Spirit spoke to my heart and suggested I look up Bill Johnson’s website
I did so and see he offers a monthly
newsletter which I’ve subscribed to. I love Bill’s teaching style
and content, and love the leadership style. While some of the
people I chat with throw off at Bethel, its quite clear to me that
Bill and the team from Bethel are being raised up at this time with
a message or 2 for the church.
Even though I’m in my mid 50’s now and a Christian for many years, I suppose it still surprises me when people reject someone that has been raised up. It used to really upset me, now I guess because of many years under my belt, I just feel a tinge of sadness when faced with people that just aren’t hearing what Holy Spirit is saying through different ones - not that I’ve ever been in that situation....
In actual fact I look back now and with some sadness and frustration note the times I’ve clearly opposed something the Holy Spirit was bringing to the church as the person who was bringing it was a ‘wally’ (to use one of our colloquial phrases), someone who I didn’t think could be speaking for God, someone who offended me because I didn’t think God could use such an insignificant person.....(I now realise I was the wally!).
Anyhow, that’s not the point, the point is I went to his site, and saw that you could subscribe to his newsletter (which I did), and I saw again the tag line for his site “I cannot afford to have a thought in my head about me that is not in His”.
I’ve just finished my porridge, and I’m sitting here now thinking, “why do I listen to other voices that are pretty negative. These voices are sometimes pretty scathing about me, sometimes though much gentler just saying that I need to accept who I am and just give up on who my papa tells me I am as I just can’t live up to that”. Of course sometimes these voices are demonic, and sometimes purely me. Like many others I’m pretty good at putting myself down!
The thing is, I know what my papa thinks of me, indeed he has been saddened by my actions at times, but in Him I sense nothing but love - I need listen more to my papa, who is love and loves me implicitly.
It does come down to this brilliant principle - I can’t afford to have a thought in my head about me that is not in His.
Even though I’m in my mid 50’s now and a Christian for many years, I suppose it still surprises me when people reject someone that has been raised up. It used to really upset me, now I guess because of many years under my belt, I just feel a tinge of sadness when faced with people that just aren’t hearing what Holy Spirit is saying through different ones - not that I’ve ever been in that situation....
In actual fact I look back now and with some sadness and frustration note the times I’ve clearly opposed something the Holy Spirit was bringing to the church as the person who was bringing it was a ‘wally’ (to use one of our colloquial phrases), someone who I didn’t think could be speaking for God, someone who offended me because I didn’t think God could use such an insignificant person.....(I now realise I was the wally!).
Anyhow, that’s not the point, the point is I went to his site, and saw that you could subscribe to his newsletter (which I did), and I saw again the tag line for his site “I cannot afford to have a thought in my head about me that is not in His”.
I’ve just finished my porridge, and I’m sitting here now thinking, “why do I listen to other voices that are pretty negative. These voices are sometimes pretty scathing about me, sometimes though much gentler just saying that I need to accept who I am and just give up on who my papa tells me I am as I just can’t live up to that”. Of course sometimes these voices are demonic, and sometimes purely me. Like many others I’m pretty good at putting myself down!
The thing is, I know what my papa thinks of me, indeed he has been saddened by my actions at times, but in Him I sense nothing but love - I need listen more to my papa, who is love and loves me implicitly.
It does come down to this brilliant principle - I can’t afford to have a thought in my head about me that is not in His.